my heart, my poor heart isn't so sure anymore about this thing called love!! in the last four years- i have loved and been loved- i have made sacrifices and compromises all in the name of love- i've been promised so many things and have lapped it all up- and its just come crashing in my face.. i have decided now that love is a figment of our imagination and its just better to actually have a plan all mapped out..
from what i have heard and seen- STRATEGY has always worked more than relying on good ol' heartfelt love!! the best laid plans!!!
at the top of my 2008 resolutions list is the * start with the end in mind plan*..
I don't wanna be led by my heart- i've strayed too far from where i'd really like to be!! I know all things happen for a reason- that's why i have a 'no regrets' policy- however, i see that if i had told a few more lies and withheld some info or pretended to like people that i really didn't like (some friends of boyfys etc), pretended to like cooking for guys as opposed to just sitting back to be spoilt, cried and poured my heart out less times... bought what i felt like buying, ate what i felt like eating, wore what i felt like wearing- went where i felt like going, if i was even just a bit CYNICAL about some of the things i was told... maybe just maybe i would be happily and strategically married by now... i guess as they say- there's a lesson to be learned in every siuation. how else do you explain being taken slowly as high as mount everest and being thrown down just when you think you've reached the peak in the blink of an eye!!
pouring my heart out is good- my sister and friends just gloss it over and try to make me feel good about myself but my heart's bleeding and I have to smile and pretend everyday... don't get me wrong, marriage ISN'T the be all and end all for me- it's just the entire dating process that i've lost hope in...
....straight from the heart
preview of next post- title- Something every single girl should have..... gotta go now-I don't want my UAE bosses to go gangster on me... the bills need to get paid!! i love you dear diary... I.G for life xx
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
dear diary, its happening again
Posted by Intuitive Girl (I.G) at 11:44 AM
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3 comments:
Welcome!
I agree with your no regrets policy because at one time it's what you wanted.
welcome to blogville..
live each day like its your last,regrets or no regrets in the end you'll look back and see it was worth it..goodluck to u!
awwwww i kno im late but i def can flow wit ur thuts......jus b strong n love urself harder than anyone else can ....Love is still out der waitin
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