the last day of 2007

Dear Diary,

It 's the last day of the year and i am thankful to God that i have been able to come this far! its only been by His Grace and mercy and i am very grateful and excited!

I haven't been here in about 11 days- there has been so much going on and i dont even know where to start- first StudMuff, arrived early from his break- he claims he was missing me too much and decided to cut it short- nice, if its true!! but you know- i have no idea what 2008 holds for us!! ok- i'll spill- the reason we can't really date or get married i cos we are 'apparently' extended cousins- and our parents do not wanna discuss it- they know we've been messing about and stuff but i think they assumed we would break free especially as we have tried dating other people- but somehow we always end up in square one!!
my favorite cousin though has said she thinks we should stop wasting everyone's time and just sort it out- but i am even scared to ask my Pastor in case he asks IF we've been ....... or how else would we say we know we're compatible in every way??

anyway, did i NOT get a call from his ex on boxing day-she said that the reason he didnt get married to her was becos of me and that she was given the impression that we are cousins but has recently leant that we have a long on/off relationship- talk about the cat being let out the bag!! I know he didn't marry her because he wasn't in love with her- so, where does she get off claiming its my fault??? people need to take responsibility for their actions- I encouraged him during their relationship and we never messed about then BUT I know she is going to go to lengths to ensure that everyone knows and its a bit irritating cos we've kept it pretty locked down and I didnt plan to go into 2008 with a scandal hanging round my neck o- so i've been having sleepless nights..

he thinks she hacked into his email and read our emails etc... well!!! Just when i thought i was finally getting it altogether and planned to become Strictly Platonic in the new year!!

Happy New Year Dear Diary!!