Insomnia

Dear Diary,

I am ill- i am suffering from Insomnia- it certainly rates as one of the toughest illnesses to have especially when you have to be alert at work early the next day.- You certainly can't call your boss to say, I've got to sleep instead of coming to work this morning and apart from having bags under your eyes, there's no other obvious symptom!! So far,I've refused to use sleeping aids because it never did make any sense to use sleeping pills when one has to awake before 7am the next morning- but after last night's experience- i think I am gonna pop one(or as many as will knock me out) of them pills from tonight. the most surprising- is the fact that i get soo soo exhausted in the course of the day that i am so sure- i'll have a good night's sleep and then i don't.

DO i go to bed late- NO.
Do I eat late?- Nope
Do I have loads of stuff on my mind- YES (more than i can possibly handle).

I got into bed at 8.30pm yesterday- pyjamas, ready to sleep and all- how do i explain being awake at 2.30am??- WIDE AWAKE for that matter..

I am rambling now because I am concerned and worried but i think its worry that got me here in the first instance!!
I am a worryholic-i can't help it and it just so happens that my mind is more concerned about 2008 than I really would love to!

what do i do?? i need a good night's sleep- i don't like these bags under my eyes- i am beginning to look and feel like i am 50.... granted, it seems like good practice for when i have my babies and have to be up all night- however, i'm not even close to that- so why don't we cross that bridge when we get there?? ;-)


Anyway- Brainiac is back in town and called me from the airport soon as he got in- trouble seeking somebody!! let's even find out if he's worth all this trouble!!!

i'm off to do some work Dear Diary!! and guess what- now, i am yawning!!! Something's definitely wrong!! off to get some coffee!!

xxx