Dear Diary,
it has been a long long time!!! where do i begin? the laptop crash that brought me high blood pressure with it, or the change in jobs or constant lethargy I've just felt in all areas of my life recently..... maybe all!!
yeah, on this faithful day, just after i got a new job offer with this new hot telco in town- I'm compiling my hand-over file- most of which is soft copy and also creating a new folder that i would find immensely useful in my new job- my laptop gives me the blue screen.... at this point, i call my friend in the technology dept and he says- oh oh- that's a red light- you need an external hard drive- so i order one but what do i know- the next day- bloody thing won't come on and to cut a long story short- its crashed!!! I won't go into the details of my agony!!! but trust me, it was damn ugly!!
then i decide to go off to Dubai- a warm destination that I'd never been- but had everything i needed- good weather and shops to prepare for my new job cos i had no clue when next i would see a leave application form and of course dreaming of meeting a Prince in that zone who would simply see that I didn't need to work again... yeah, it didn't happen that way....once the humidity of Lagos welcomed me, I woke up from that dream... I'm still hoping though....
but who starts a new job feeling lethargic- yep, you got that right- ME!! the feeling has completely engulfed me and i just hate it- i cannot seem to shake it off and i cannot seem to get excited about anything, I'm not even capable of feeling any emotions- I wanna do things but I can't be bothered- wanna blog daily but just cannot be bothered, wanna learn how to use my new HP tablet lappy, but nothing seems to be capable of tickling me right now.... not the thought of dressing up in my new clothes and going out to meet my friends, or new people.. nothing.
Don't get me wrong, I am not depressed again, I'm not sad or unhappy- at least not consciously so. I don't know what else to call it but lethargy.. sometimes i just say I'm on auto-pilot. I'm not losing or putting on weight- my appetite seems alright, I'm managing not to offend anyone- cos i respond to text messages and calls and on the outside- it all seems like I'm great but i know I'm not really being the normal I.G!!!
Dear Diary, Bring Her back- i know you're saying.... I want her back too- but HOW?????
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Lethargy!!!
Posted by Intuitive Girl (I.G) at 3:22 AM
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Hey, me too i want the old I.G back!!! I know what your going through and how you feel but trust me, you have to snap out if it. Before i learnt to control this so called lethargy i could go months not feeling anything or wanting to do anything, i knew i was hitting depression when all i wanted to do was just stay in bed, my hair started falling off and i couldn't even walk without feeling like i was going to faint (sounds dramatic abi? but thats how depression starts).
What i'm saying to you is you are the only one who can bring back the old you, just decide that your going to learn to use the hp lappy for instance and go for it, start blogging again even if you have to write how you feel each day, whether you noticed any improvement in your mood or not.
Anyways let me stop here before you think i'm writing an essay. Gud luck dear.
almost first. 2nd aint bad. My god wat would become of me if cocolet(my laptop) shld crash? chei. u hv me in a sober mood.
My lappy was also misbehaving at some point too and it kinda rendered me sort of useless. Don't worry baby, you gonna be fine. It happens to everyone, you not alone.
take it easy. God is always in control and everything will be fine.
take care!
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